It’s pass midnight.. Just some random thoughts before I go off to sleep.
Llife has been awesome and fatabulously GREAT though it’s not at all smooth sailing. God didn’t say anything about giving us a life of a bed of roses and a smooth sailing one but all that God has said is that “If He is with me, who can go against me?”
Been defeated so many times and many would have and already have turned off from this path that I’m going but I chose to stay on because I know my rewards will be in Heaven. The worse of the worse prosecution, problems, failures and all that you can think of can come against me but I’m very sure of one thing and that is, it is NOT going to turn my eyes away from this path that I’m on.
Thought of a lot this few days, feeling like I have grown up a little more. I need to stop being so reliant on others but just on God for strength and power for I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. My life isn’t the most perfect one but I know always in my heart that I have a PERFECT GOD who can heals and take all my grieves and share my joy with me.
I’m so proud to say confidently that I’m still able to love God even when He is not doing anything in my life anymore, God is enough for me. Not saying it out in a moment of rush emotions but I know God have reassured me so many times since I have became a Christian by doing so many things, opening up so many paths and opportunities for me whenever I’m lost and stuck at where I am, I turn aside and I always know that there’s somewhere for me to go to and Someone for me to turn to. I don’t need fun, hype and blessings in every single day of my life because today, I finally know that I have all that people ever wanted and I’m secure with God and with what I have (:
Hmmm so happy to type all these things out, as I begin to type, many more memories and thoughts came to my mind. God’s grace and His goodness in my life and the awesome Pastors and leaders I have who never fails to be there for me. I’m so happy to say that I once was lost, blind and dead but God, my Pastors and leaders found me in the midst of so many people and changed me from the inside out, upside down (:
Cherish all that we have, don’t ever take things for granted, you never know what will be gone in your life the next moment, keep tapping on God and leaning on His strength and have gratitude towards our Pastors and leaders (:
Leading NOT the most PERFECT LIFE but I know this is a life for God and for others (:
I wanna grow up knowing and having God’s goodness over me (:
Thankful for Pastors and Charleston, Ivan, Samantha and Fedora (:
On a side note…
Gonna go school tomorrow! Haha but I have mix feelings in me now towards school. Happy but at the same time stress. (I know it’s once in a thousand years you see me saying/blogging that school is stress -.-) Usually it’s either I can’t be bothered about school work or I have given up totally.But this time, God spoke to me about school, yes you didn’t see wrongly, SCHOOL. I need to start being serious about it, as much as I want to reach out, get souls saved but unless one day I get my studies up, all these are gonna just be a dream and nothing will come out of it. If I can do well and serve a lot in church but I’m just a slacker and someone whom people dislike in school because of my commitments in church, all that I want to do for God is definitely NOT going to happen. So.. I have come to a conclusion that for the sake of God, myself, my future, I’m going to start planning, living and studying out my life. (Oh wait, does it make sense? Haha but I hope you understand)
SMILE~ (:
