Gotta learn to so many things myself without you. I miss your shoutings at me, i miss seeing your number light up on my phone, whenever it rings, i really wish that it will be you calling me to go home and don’t stay out too late, none of that is going to happen anymore. Sometimes i look at people with a envy eyes, envy heart that one day everything will be back to normal. But we got to face up to reality someday, went through so many days without your calls, without talking to you, i’m still not use to it, every night, i wish for your return. Got to learn to be independent afterall. Life still goes on..

But i know that among all this, amidst of every emotion and thoughts, i know that i’ve a God whose ways are higher then mine, i’ve wonderful spiritual parents who cares and wonderful leaders who bothers :D All this people in my life are people who will bring me further, i really can’t be more grateful to them :)

Someday i will learn to need to face independence, learn it now, learn it.